All is not lost

I look at her and it’s so breath taking. Her smile, her laugh. It all slowly kills me cause I can’t breathe. Every thought I hold escapes me. I see her and I’m lost. It’s all so new and so good. I never thought this feeling would find itself back to me, but here it is. And the overwhelming excitement feels good. Her heart is so full. And every look I steal, I fall further and deeper. It’s a great escape from the world I’ve created for myself. I still feel broken, but she gives me the one thing I haven’t had for so long I barely recognize... hope.

Thunderstorm

Your soul like a thunderstorm, holding so much beauty and destruction. Where there is one, you will find the other. So brilliantly falling, feeding nature’s world and drowning its people. I take one look at your lightning and I’m struck. Frozen, unable to move. My heart’s beating, spilling every secret into you. I finally tilt my head back to look at you and smile. Because your destruction is forgotten, and all I see is you.

Freedom forced

I am a blade showing you your reflection as you cut deep. A reminder on your skin of the memories you carry. Your tears fall like the rain that doesn’t seem to pass. I feel your warm body go cold as I cause you pain with a stroke.  At the end, you close your eyes and tilt back in a tub of running water where your blood lingers and drips down to your fingertips. You are safe now. You are home. You are free.

10-03-18.

Unstable, leaning on a crutch to hold me up. All the noise I’m surrounded by gets louder, I can’t focus. It's all too much. Sweet sounds whispering in my ears to fight off the white noise I’m suffocating in. Dependent on a wire, in a world where we are run by a screen. I try to breathe like I’m supposed to know how, but I’ve been raised by the hand that cupped my mouth to hold my breath. Instability is at all angles, and I’m not the only one. 

Someone new

Like a small light in a room of darkness,

She radiates. Brightly. I’m blinded at her rays. She illuminates.Her spirit so full and mind so brilliant. I can feel her smile from a screen, so deep. So real. I need to know more about her. I need to know everything. Because I know behind that smile, there’s more. There’s sadness behind her glory eyes. She carries the sun set in them, with a moon like soul. She’s different and I don’t even know her.