what gets me the most

its the way she laughs that gets me the most.
is it possible to fall in love with someone through the sound of their voice?
she smiles and my whole being falls apart.
when i'm with her, my world stops. time stops.
i can feel how i lose myself when i'm with her. Just as i can feel finding myself with her.
i look at her and smile because i know when i've fallen in love, it'll feel just as i feel now but more.
even now, i can feel bits and pieces falling for her.
it may not be love just yet, but i know where we're headed, it'll get there.

i so desperately want to get it right with her.
i told her i didn't want to lose the so many small moments that make me happy when i'm with her,
and with grace she replied "ok, well we just wont." as if she knew how things would turn up. the way she said it caught me off guard. the words she chose caught me off guard. they were so real and genuine. And simple. she tends to do that, say a lot through few words. i don't know how she does it, but she does.

valentine's day is coming up and i already know this one will be the best yet. not because we're doing the typical date thing, cause we're not, but because i know that every time i'm with her, its amazing. moments with her are lovely. Lovely, i rarely use that word. but i dont know how to better describe moments with her besides lovely.

she makes me feel something. she makes me feel everything.
is that how its supposed to be?
shes all i ever think about. shes so distracting even when im not with her.
i can sit in class and lecture can be interesting and somehow she manages to pop in my head which usually leads to me looking down because every time i think of her, a smile always finds its way on my face. she does that. make people smile. i dont know how, but she does.

i am so head over heals for this girl and its so terrifying.
everything about it is scary.
just writing this makes my heart beat faster.

although it might be terrifying, i'm still smiling as it happens because when im with her, my vision is clear.

its the way she laughs that gets me the most.
its the way she is, all of her, that gets me the most.



Jess.