chapters

i don't really know where to begin...
i haven't written in a long time so the update is real. for starters, I'm finding myself more and more at a simplistic state of mind. exams every week, deadlines to meet, jobs asking for more, i don't know if i ever give myself time to just breathe or think about it all. i guess i don't want to, if i do then i think i'll just want to give up. i do that a lot, just give up like its nothing, i don't know, it kinda just happens. at this point, I'm taking it all day by day, step by step. my friends don't really know whats going on in my head, i love of them, but they don't get it, and they never will. thats okay with me. they don't need to understand. i don't want them to understand. another chapter is coming to an end in my life and its a big thing for me, deals with my family, a broken family becoming permanently broken. its all just finally turning over and its kinda relieving for me, i've been going through the brokenness my whole life and to know it might all finally come to end is little relaxing. not an end to the brokenness exactly, but an end to the breaking continuing.
but thats just the way my life has come to, the ending of chapters and tearing out pages.