quiet space, quiet mind

so i meditated for the first time yesterday, given it was only for five minutes but nonetheless it was peaceful. get this, it was actually in one of my classes. we're required to read a book that tells us how to basically make our life better, and i most definitely did not read it. i read the first couple of pages then told myself hell-to-the-no, i was too into the book i was currently reading so hopefully that justifies why i denied myself a way of being happier.
so we're all sitting in our seats, lights off, with just the window light showing. everyone gets quiet as they try to get in their meditating zone, i on the other hand take my time to observe all the things around me at first. i try to notice every little thing so that i can picture it in my mind. i notice the way the kid near me swings their feet, the heavy breathing, i see the trees moving in the wind, and i see the clock tick. i close my eyes and focus on everything i can notice about myself. i feel the breaths of air i take in, filling up my whole chest and body, as i hold my breath i notice my heart beating. the beats getting slower and slower, then i release. i release the huge breath of air so slowly I begin to count. eight counts in, eight counts out. one. i start to think of how my academic year is full of Bs, literally all Bs. two. i think about my best friend in Dallas who hasn't made the time to talk to me. three. i remind myself of another challenging academic semester in the spring. four. i tell myself i need to find a way to show a professor that nominating me for the black and gold society is the right thing. five. i think of all the reasons i haven't found love. six. i remember of the divorce my parents are planning to have after twenty-some years of marriage. seven. i'm reminded of my mother being alone with a sickness and how she'll ever manage without my help. eight. i'm overwhelmed by everything and anything. release. eight. i just picked up my quiz average to an A. seven. next semester is a fresh start. six. my mother is strong woman and can handle anything. five. i have a best friend who is the definition of sunshine even if she denies it. four. i have an amazing God who loves me. three. love is patient. two. my parents love me no matter what happens. one. i forget everything and anything. the voices in my head have gone quiet. the quiet room becomes the quiet room in my head. its all just so quiet, i swear i can hear the wind brushing the leaves outsides. i can hear the silence. its all just peaceful and my mind is clear. *beep*beep*beep* timer goes off and my five minutes are up and for just a couple of seconds after do i remain at peace, but then it all starts rolling in again.