its all bitter sweet. i remember the good times i spent with her. i remember spending most of my days laughing with her, adoring her amazing smile, and thinking how i was the luckiest person in the world for having her.
now, today is turning into just another normal day. well at least it started off that way. i hope things get easier over the years, because anything worse than the feeling i have right now i will not be able to handle it.
But, if i could tell anything to my ex right now i would still say "I love you," but i would also say that i dont need you.
"dear ex,
i still love you, but i dont need you. i am okay and i hope you are too. today has been rough and maybe thats because a part of me will always feel the hurt and maybe that will never go away, but i think im okay with that. i think its okay to hurt, its the day i wake up and things dont hurt is when maybe i can finally move on. but for now, im just going to focus on myself and i hope you will too.
i hope you find what you're looking for, and i am sorry i couldn't give you what you needed.
love,
Jess. "
here's to hoping i can make it through the night, goodnight reader. wish me luck.
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